shihui's

2009-08-07T13:17:00.000+08:00

moved,
http://www.crushed.onsugar.com

2009-07-19T23:51:00.002+08:00

my brother say this photo nice. -.-

2009-07-18T22:37:00.003+08:00

Somewhere far along this road
She lost her soul
To a man so heartless
How could you be so heartless?

Wolf in sheep's skin.

2009-07-06T19:06:00.002+08:00

I really hate people who betrays my trust for them and take me for granted. You treat them as your sister/brother/best friend and yet they just had to stab you with some untrue facts that they made up or they just push all the blame to you when you're not all in the wrong, you'd always think they will be the last to betray you but yet, they ended up to be the first. It isn't the first time already, I must learn how to trust someone who is worth my trust. Fuck all the bullshits luh. I'm not pointing at anyone, if you think its you, then its you?

2009-07-01T21:15:00.005+08:00

School is tiring, its draining away all my energy.
Really must buck up, I can do it.
Had an afternoon nap just, got woken up by my mum.
Lingyi was mapling while I was asleep, hah.
bathed and changed and bought cigs, Lingyi went home while I met Maha nearby my house to smoke.
Home again, don't think I'd fall asleep so easily tonight,
I'll go down for a jog or something later(:

2009-06-28T04:55:00.003+08:00

Think this is the last day that I'll be sleeping so late since its the last day of June holidays already. Once school starts, I'm gonna buck up on my studies already, no fooling around and less sleeping in class. Yes, I have determination and perseverance in me. I'm going to do magic and change all my fails to beautiful passes just wait and see who will have the last laugh. Mummy once told me, “ 做好给人家看，不要让别人有机会说你坏话。” I must remember this well and hard, yeah.

I've had enough of play in this holiday already, time to change to school mood. I'll prove to those Fucktards that I'm one who can study. :)

2009-05-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

Time flies huh,
a year ago I was still with you and everything,
planning bout your birthday chalet and all.
This year, you're with another girl.
Another year, another birthday, another girl.
Self admit I still have feelings for you but I know it won't be possible.
Learn to accept facts even if I can't forget,
All the best with your girl & an advance Happy birthday to You(':

2009-05-08T14:42:00.003+08:00

So I opted for a breakup,
I really didn't mean to hurt you this way.
I'm not worthy of you,
you treated me so well by I just had to let you down.
I'm sorry, the feelings I have just can't get deeper,
always wondered you were my best friend or my boyfriend.
Hope some other girls out there would learn to cherish you.

maybe its more of a "because I can't forget him" kinda thing resulting in this, sigh.
can't get myself at times, stupid!

2009-05-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

Last friday night at hill top, a lil tipsy up there.

Well life's been cool with its usual ups and downs.
Its like a sudden decision and we're together,
I know it seems as if I'm not giving much off a damn to you but I am.
all I need is just some time to adapt to changes and everything will be a'okay.
I don't wanna let you down my dear love(:

Indifferent;

2009-04-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

looks like I haven't been posting.
well tomorrow's the start of my examination and I still don't know a single shit.
how great(:

I'll post again soon,
goodbye.

love is just a game for 2(:

crush;

2009-04-05T00:33:00.004+08:00

awaiting your texts every now and then,
starting to miss you when you left me not long after,
playing songs you sang to me on repeat,
reminded of everything we speak,
guess I'm falling for you more and more each day(:

we'll take things slow and see what we'll turn out to be,
I really hope you are what you seem to be and that you're the one for me(:

2009-04-03T08:09:00.002+08:00

skipped school for the third time this week,
I know its not something good but I just don't feel like attending school at all.
I still can't get myself to study, don't feel the urgency in me..

some power you have, I just can't help but smile when I receive your texts(:

down on luck;

2009-03-24T08:56:00.002+08:00

I fell down again just now, additional bruises to my legs.
painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! :(
down on my luck or what.
lost around 40 bucks last last night, but won back 5 yesterday.
2 words: gambling kills.
gonna smoke a stick before heading to bed,
have not sleep at all since last night and I still needa go out at 2.
I must treasure my precious time to sleep.
bye whoever is reading(:

Its history;

2009-03-23T00:02:00.003+08:00

so I was living in a lie all along,
I kept thinking that there would still be a slight glimpse of hope no matter what.
but no, you were attached all along..
my heart feels as if its been torn to millions of pieces.
I guess its really time to give up & move on.
This will be the very last time I'll get upset over you,
I'll control myself not to shed anymore tears for you.
I'll remember, we're history, past tense.
goodbye.

2009-03-21T00:50:00.003+08:00

some recent photos(:

flames to dust, lovers to friends.

2009-03-18T11:12:00.004+08:00

having you around me for two nights straight made me felt bliss,
it just hurts me when we're of close distance but you are of a mere friend and nothing more.
sigh, they asked me why I love you so much, I really wanna know why too.
today's the 18th again, another celebration without you..
I want you back so much, still holding on to hope that you'll be back,
I really hope you would.
love & misses from a dumb fool.

:)

2009-03-13T00:38:00.003+08:00

"people can choose to hurt you, but you can choose not to let yourself get hurt by them."

didn't attend school today,
not gonna attend school tmr too, still a lil sick but recovering already(:
in summary, today was breakfast with andrew, tamp to get my stuffs, school outside to meet other friends, west plaza to meet kelly, went back to my house area to meet kaven.

being friends with you ain't as bad as I thought, I'm over the moon now(:

Where are you;

2009-03-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

I'm sick.
down with cough, flu & a fever that goes on and off, it makes me feel so weak.
been like this 2 weeks back just that it got worse recently.
how I wish I could slice open my throat and give it a good scratch so I'll stop coughing, arghhhh
gonna be a hectic day tmr, parents going to school, oral and physics retest after school, Sigh

how I wish you're right beside me now taking care of me. I need you, I seriously do. All I can do is stare helplessly at pictures of you & me, life sucks without you.

I can wait forever;

2009-03-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

this feeling in me now just suck.
seeing you today made me feel so happy, yet so heart wrenching.
happy that I'm finally able to see you, happy to know that you're safe and sound.
heart wrenching because I know, you're no longer mine..
I kept telling you off, kept rejecting to be your friend.
you kept asking me why.
its all because I know, even if we're friends, there's no way we can be together again.
so what's the point, it hurts..
people may think I'm childish, lame, dumb or whatever.
but this is how I feel.
I felt like crying so much when I looked into your eye,
I wanted to hug you so much and not let go,
but I didn't, I know I don't have the rights to do it anymore.
till now nobody could replace you in my heart.
seeing you today makes me want you back even more.
can't help but tear,
Darling, I really love you, I want you back in my arms again so so much. :'(

Deep & meaningless;

2009-03-04T18:01:00.000+08:00

have so much to say, but idk where to start with.

today's just sucha bored & tiring day, gave school a miss again.
waited for usual clique to end school with lingyi & andrew.

ever since that day, when everything ended, my life had been on a roller coaster ride.
had my ups and downs, just seems that I've been through so much.
friends told me about problems in their love life, my mind would automatically think about you.
I can't deny, I still miss you, a part of you is still in me.
sometimes I wonder, what're you doing, are you alright, what's in your mind now.
I know, if we're friends, we can keep in contact & all my questions & thoughts will be answered.
but no, being only friends with you would just pain my heart so much, it hurts calling you a friend & nothing more.
sometimes I'd still wonder if maybe there's still a slight chance that we'll be back together.
I know it ain't possible, but somehow I just can't face the fact.
told you that i'll forget you when you rejected my patch that day,
its been a month but I still have not accomplish it yet.
sigh, you're one love that's so hard to forget..