I can wait forever;

this feeling in me now just suck.
seeing you today made me feel so happy, yet so heart wrenching.
happy that I'm finally able to see you, happy to know that you're safe and sound.
heart wrenching because I know, you're no longer mine..
I kept telling you off, kept rejecting to be your friend.
you kept asking me why.
its all because I know, even if we're friends, there's no way we can be together again.
so what's the point, it hurts..
people may think I'm childish, lame, dumb or whatever.
but this is how I feel.
I felt like crying so much when I looked into your eye,
I wanted to hug you so much and not let go,
but I didn't, I know I don't have the rights to do it anymore.
till now nobody could replace you in my heart.
seeing you today makes me want you back even more.
can't help but tear,
Darling, I really love you, I want you back in my arms again so so much. :'(